How was your year? It seems 2018 was a challenging and exciting year for many of us. The end of the year is a good time to self-reflect so I thought I would give you some journal questions to play with. Journaling helps us know ourselves better. It also gives us the opportunity to solidify our discoveries.
Reflecting on the year for myself brings a big out breath. A year ago we were living at my in-laws in a caravan looking for a new home and now we are having our first summer in our partially renovated (house renovators need support groups!), tropical hideaway.
I enjoyed teaching past life regression in Auckland and Tauranga as well as having 26 weeks of super fun facilitating Tarot classes. I also finished my first book and had it fully edited - that task is finalised tomorrow, the last day of the year!
Personally I also managed to squeeze in some brand new trauma memories popping up. Yikes! That had me revisiting the toughest feeling there is, shame. In hindsight it was another wonderful learning opportunity and powerfully healing. Now there is even more authentic me in the foreground!
Here are some end of the year journal questions to play with –
What did I learn about myself this year?
What new experiences did I have?
What did I accomplish that I am proud of?
What were my biggest challenges?
How did I help others this year?
What am I being called to work on?
What guidance would I give myself if I began 2018 again?
What will I take from this year into my new year?
It's powerful to vocalise the answers to these questions too, so maybe you share with a friend or say your answers out loud as well as writing them down.
Wishing you a light filled New Year
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It's Christmas Love time! I've always enjoyed this time of year. The smell of fresh pine radiates from my sparkly tree and the Summer vibe is kicking in. There's the excitement of gifts to give and receive. There's also yummy food being gathered and prepared.
The vibration of giving is tangible at this time of the year. Gracious giving and receiving opens our hearts. We feel genuinely cared for and appreciated and we want others to feel the same. The heart chakra expands when appreciation and love abound. With an open heart we look and act more beautiful. This is what I love. Giving gifts is healing for everyone!
Jesus was an open-hearted, healer kind of guy. This vibe is what I like to imbibe at Christmas time. I celebrate gratitude, appreciation and the big kind of Love. And sure, we don't need presents and a feast to be grateful but having all three is a bonus in my world!
This time of the year there are millions of people giving and receiving. The collective energy of Big Love is palpable when you tune into that. Yes, there's too much commercialism and hype but instead of focusing on what you don't like you could experiment being with the spirit of Love and Gratitude.
When we appreciate and accept our friends and family for who they really are, wounds and all, we expand our heart centre. We can do this for strangers too. In this practice our loving light radiates towards others, affecting their vibration. This can soften prickly bits as well as bring healing.
Enjoy giving at this time, in whatever way you feel drawn to do that. Your smile and words can be enough. Your loving light is always needed.
Let the big Love vibe of Christmas shine all over you and everyone you know.
Wishing you a Loving Christmas
I recently experienced a new memory from a long ago incident. It was the sudden and shocking type of recollection that requires time to process. I spent the week thinking, feeling, regressing, trying to not to analyse, feeling some more and gradually integrating this once buried wound.
During that week I was teaching healers how to support their clients by working with the wounded inner child. How perfect for me! They too experienced new memories, and, like myself, they were too young to recall it all and had no witnesses. The few days that followed had me encountering 3 others that also realised a partial disturbing memory.
Healers have always been called to make peace with themselves and their history. With their wisdom, experience and maturity they can now go even deeper. It takes courage and divine timing to be ready for aspects of trauma to come forward in a way that isn't intellectual. Buried feelings like shame and terror need strong holding from a support person or one's own compassionate adult self. When we are stuck in a child like memory it can be scary and ungrounding.
If you too have been triggered somehow into a past memory know this is a good thing. Your system is wanting to heal. Our nerves and tissue hold trauma, our pain and tension is usually based in unexpressed emotions from long ago.
When your higher self knows you are ready to finally process something old then memories will come. When they arrive in a way where you are feeling it physically, emotionally and energetically it can be surprising and confusing, especially when you have no recollection of the event. Don't let your bossy mind try to analyse it, it will stop you feeling and prolong the healing. I know the wanting to understand it thing, it's an easy default. Thinking isn't healing though, it blocks emotions like anger, sadness and grief.
Have the courage to feel painful emotions and be patient. Despite what you think or are told you don't need to know the whole story, regardless of how much your mind wants to understand it. Having no witnesses for past trauma can be frustrating and perplexing, yet if you are meant to know more the images and information will be come in the right time. Trust what is happening on a non intellectual level. You ARE healing.
As we release the hold on old emotions and thought patterns that no longer serve us we become more authentic, and that means a happier, easier life.
Tips for this kind of experience -
Wishing you kindness
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